Thursday, June 21, 2007
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
Pulling Through
[BGM: La La Lie - Jack's Mannequin]
Sarap ng gudang. Pero ayoko na.
Nasira ko yung wall, di ko alam kung maganda, pero makalat ata. Tinulak ko na lang sana.
Ang gulo. Wala akong magawa.
Masyado na namang pumapalakpak tenga ko. Time to droop them down.
But it's all about me again. Tsk tsk.
Pero ayun lang, di ko alam magagawa ko.
What hurts the most is that I'm just sitting here, doing nothing.
I really wish I could help. The wall's too thick.
But everything hurts! And it's not anyone's fault, only mine. I chose to.
Every time my phone lights up and dances around, I'd wish it was you.
But it's not. And it takes almost forever to hear from you.
I can always lay down problems aside and relax. At least for other people, I would.
But the turbulence sometimes swell so hard, I'd just sleep.
Sleep and get a sore back for staying on bed too much. And then I'll be late for class.
It's always worth it to wait for that pop-up. Even if it doesn't show up.
The best I could probably do. If only people would let me do anything besides waiting.
Fuck, it's tiring. And pathetic too, if you'd ask anybody.
Patience is when you wait and you get.
But what would you call, waiting and not getting anything?
But of course I do get things, small and special things. It's rare though, but priceless.
Well I've got friends who
La La Lie
Will help me pull through
La La Lie
But I'm not coming back to anyone, not even after July.
You know I love you.
Sarap ng gudang. Pero ayoko na.
Nasira ko yung wall, di ko alam kung maganda, pero makalat ata. Tinulak ko na lang sana.
Ang gulo. Wala akong magawa.
Masyado na namang pumapalakpak tenga ko. Time to droop them down.
But it's all about me again. Tsk tsk.
Pero ayun lang, di ko alam magagawa ko.
What hurts the most is that I'm just sitting here, doing nothing.
I really wish I could help. The wall's too thick.
But everything hurts! And it's not anyone's fault, only mine. I chose to.
Every time my phone lights up and dances around, I'd wish it was you.
But it's not. And it takes almost forever to hear from you.
I can always lay down problems aside and relax. At least for other people, I would.
But the turbulence sometimes swell so hard, I'd just sleep.
Sleep and get a sore back for staying on bed too much. And then I'll be late for class.
It's always worth it to wait for that pop-up. Even if it doesn't show up.
The best I could probably do. If only people would let me do anything besides waiting.
Fuck, it's tiring. And pathetic too, if you'd ask anybody.
Patience is when you wait and you get.
But what would you call, waiting and not getting anything?
But of course I do get things, small and special things. It's rare though, but priceless.
Well I've got friends who
La La Lie
Will help me pull through
La La Lie
But I'm not coming back to anyone, not even after July.
You know I love you.
Sunday, June 10, 2007
Aware
Bakit I been around, I been waiting, I been scheming? Ahaha. Kasi routine ko na for the past year na maghintay. Hmph. Ano pa ba gagawin ko kapag online ako? Tinatamad ako maglaro. Shitty naman PC ko. Now and then nakakakita ako ng something interesting, pero la rin. Mas madala pa rin ako tumingin sa desktop, yun lang, tumingin at maghintay.
Eh ano naman kung dumating? Parang wala lang. Hindi ko na alam kung ano paguusapan. Parang empty. Bland. Eto yung hinihintay ko pero ansakit kapag dumadating. Weh. Gusto ko kausapin pero parang ayoko. Parang ansaya tumingin sa messenger list: "oi, nandun sia oh". Yun lang. May pic, may pangalan, clickable item. Pero distant. DISTANT! Di ko tuloy alam gagawin ko. Parang wala na talaga akong maitutulong. Kasi, parang tumatambay lang ako sa bakod niya. Ano ako, feeling ko nasa bahay lang ako, mag-isang nakaupo sa PC, scheming. At totoo nga. Hindi ko alam gagawin ko! Tulong.
Tapos kunwari dumating nga. Wala lang. Wala lang talaga. Buti pa itong mga acquaintances ko, pero friends ko na. May napag-uusapan talaga kami, kahit na walang kwenta, and it's a mutual effort. At lilipas ang oras ng masaya. At mag-uunli pa kami kung minsan. Well. Mejo naghihintay pa naman ako buong araw. Nang-iistalk ng blog.
Ah the little things! Ngaun, I'm wearing an Invincible Smile. Sasakit na bibig ko mamaya. Ahaha.
At 1:51 na ko natapos kakasulat.
Eh ano naman kung dumating? Parang wala lang. Hindi ko na alam kung ano paguusapan. Parang empty. Bland. Eto yung hinihintay ko pero ansakit kapag dumadating. Weh. Gusto ko kausapin pero parang ayoko. Parang ansaya tumingin sa messenger list: "oi, nandun sia oh". Yun lang. May pic, may pangalan, clickable item. Pero distant. DISTANT! Di ko tuloy alam gagawin ko. Parang wala na talaga akong maitutulong. Kasi, parang tumatambay lang ako sa bakod niya. Ano ako, feeling ko nasa bahay lang ako, mag-isang nakaupo sa PC, scheming. At totoo nga. Hindi ko alam gagawin ko! Tulong.
Tapos kunwari dumating nga. Wala lang. Wala lang talaga. Buti pa itong mga acquaintances ko, pero friends ko na. May napag-uusapan talaga kami, kahit na walang kwenta, and it's a mutual effort. At lilipas ang oras ng masaya. At mag-uunli pa kami kung minsan. Well. Mejo naghihintay pa naman ako buong araw. Nang-iistalk ng blog.
Ah the little things! Ngaun, I'm wearing an Invincible Smile. Sasakit na bibig ko mamaya. Ahaha.
At 1:51 na ko natapos kakasulat.
Saturday, June 9, 2007
Shuffle
Nagpa-praktis ako ng one hand deck shuffle. Ito ang trials ko:
Fail! Fail! Success! Fail! Fail! Success! Success! Success! Fail! Success!
Wow 50%. Pero mejo ayos yung iba, so kung adjusted, above 60% success rate ko. Buti na lang kapag dinedemonstrate ko sumasakto. May ganong factor eh. Pero pag inulit ko sa same person, wala na. Oh yes.
Pero marunong na ko mag "Russian Shuffle" na di talaga shuffle, cool effect lang. See me for demonstration. Marunong lang, at short distances. Pero practice lang at lalaki range nun. Well.
Bakit ako nagpaka-autistic uli? Well, frustrated ako. I really am. Nakakapang-gigil!
600 pesos ata naubos ko ngayung araw. Hurts! At sprinkled ako with peculiar white specks, di ko alam kung saan galing. Parang nilihang pintura. The world's gone mad.
Nagbago nga pala ako template. Title rin. What a shame. Ewan.
Anyway. Frustrated nga ako. Grrr. Napaka-eventful ng araw na 'to. Pero hinde.
Pumunta lang ako ng UP para kumain ng sisig. At walang nangyari halos. At wala pa ring nangyayari ngayung gabi. Shit. Grrr uli.
Hindi ko alam kung bakit na-trigger nun! Siguro dahil pile, pile, pile up. Tapos loose end na naman ang araw na 'to. Nakakalungkot. Adik ako. Oh shit.
Saya-saya ko pa namang naglalakad pauwi, kahit na ripped off ako ng 600. Argh talk to the hand! Just another night na sana eh, ayan, specially frustrating na tuloy. Grrr na naman.
Gagawa na lang ako sudden fiction:
"I waited for the breeze to cool me down, but it came and went like there was none. If only one could take hold of it without it extinguishing, or if it were to blow continuously wherever I may go. But for now, I wait for it again, the wind that uplifts my soul."
Isa pa!
"I wondered why you gave me the hand. I wondered why you would ask for mine. I wondered why you gave me the hand again. I wondered why I never gave you mine."
Pero hindi ata qualified itong latter. Pero alam niyo naman resolution, walang nangyari pa rin.
Magsusulat na nga lang ako.
Fail! Fail! Success! Fail! Fail! Success! Success! Success! Fail! Success!
Wow 50%. Pero mejo ayos yung iba, so kung adjusted, above 60% success rate ko. Buti na lang kapag dinedemonstrate ko sumasakto. May ganong factor eh. Pero pag inulit ko sa same person, wala na. Oh yes.
Pero marunong na ko mag "Russian Shuffle" na di talaga shuffle, cool effect lang. See me for demonstration. Marunong lang, at short distances. Pero practice lang at lalaki range nun. Well.
Bakit ako nagpaka-autistic uli? Well, frustrated ako. I really am. Nakakapang-gigil!
600 pesos ata naubos ko ngayung araw. Hurts! At sprinkled ako with peculiar white specks, di ko alam kung saan galing. Parang nilihang pintura. The world's gone mad.
Nagbago nga pala ako template. Title rin. What a shame. Ewan.
Anyway. Frustrated nga ako. Grrr. Napaka-eventful ng araw na 'to. Pero hinde.
Pumunta lang ako ng UP para kumain ng sisig. At walang nangyari halos. At wala pa ring nangyayari ngayung gabi. Shit. Grrr uli.
Hindi ko alam kung bakit na-trigger nun! Siguro dahil pile, pile, pile up. Tapos loose end na naman ang araw na 'to. Nakakalungkot. Adik ako. Oh shit.
Saya-saya ko pa namang naglalakad pauwi, kahit na ripped off ako ng 600. Argh talk to the hand! Just another night na sana eh, ayan, specially frustrating na tuloy. Grrr na naman.
Gagawa na lang ako sudden fiction:
"I waited for the breeze to cool me down, but it came and went like there was none. If only one could take hold of it without it extinguishing, or if it were to blow continuously wherever I may go. But for now, I wait for it again, the wind that uplifts my soul."
Isa pa!
"I wondered why you gave me the hand. I wondered why you would ask for mine. I wondered why you gave me the hand again. I wondered why I never gave you mine."
Pero hindi ata qualified itong latter. Pero alam niyo naman resolution, walang nangyari pa rin.
Magsusulat na nga lang ako.
Friday, June 8, 2007
What A Shame
Napanood ko kanina Once Upon A Time In America, Sergio Leone. Maganda! At dahil dun nainspire akong manood ng movies ng mga Great Directors. Oh yes.Nakaka-intrigue yung mga scenes. Ang ganda pa ni young Jennifer Connelly.
Eto yung sinabi niya sa isang scene dun:
My beloved is white and ruddy
His skin is as the most fine gold
His cheeks are as a bed of spices
Even though he hasn't washed since last December
His eyes are as the eyes of doves
His body is as bright ivory
His legs are as pillars of marble
In pants so dirty they stand by themselves
He is altogether lovable
But he will always be a two-bit punk
So he will never be my beloved
What a shame.
Galing yung ibang lines sa Song of Solomon. Pero hindi lang pala ako ang natuwa diyan, search on some of the lines.
Natuwa ako on how Noodles acts when the poem was read to him. He just stares out, and couldn't look at her eyes. He spoke no word. It was revealed that he always remembered that scene, and it has kept him strong for the past years. Oh yes. Meron rin akong ganyan, pero parang hindi nangyari, hmp. Kalimutan ko daw. But it's there, hindi ko nga lang maalala yung mga sinabi. What a shame.
Ipopost ko na lang itong masayang song:
I can dim the lights and sing you songs full of sad things
We can do the tango just for two
I can serenade and gently play on your heart strings
Be your valentino just for you
Ooh love - ooh loverboy
What're you doin' tonight, hey boy
Set my alarm, turn on my charm
That's because I'm a good old-fashioned lover boy
Ooh let me feel your heartbeat (Grow faster, faster)
Ooh ooh can you feel my love heat
Come on and sit on my hot-seat of love
And tell me how do you feel right after-all
I'd like for you and I to go romancing
Say the word - your wish is my command
Ooh love - ooh loverboy
What're you doin' tonight, hey boy
Write my letter
Feel much better
And use my fancy patter on the telephone
When I'm not with you
I think of you always
(I miss those long hot summer nights)
I miss you
When I'm not with you
Think of me always
Love you - love you
Hey boy where do you get it from
Hey boy where did you go ?
I learned my passion in the good old
Fashioned school of loverboys
Dining at the Ritz we'll meet at nine precisely
One two three four five six seven eight nine o' clock
I will pay the bill, you taste the wine
Driving back in style, in my saloon will do quite nicely
Just take me back to yours that will be fine (Come on and get it)
Ooh love, (There he goes again just like a good old-fashioned lover boy)
Ooh loverboy
What're you doin' tonight, hey boy
Everything's all right
Just hold on tight
That's because I'm a good old-fashioned fashioned lover boy
- Good Old-Fashioned Lover Boy, Queen [Greatest Hits]
Buzz lang if you want a copy. But nobody wants anything anymore, what a shame.
At meron pang isa na walang magawa.
What a shame.
Wednesday, June 6, 2007
Play It
Ano ginagawa ko for the past few days? Gigising ng maaga, makikinig ng Queen thru my new speakers, tapos zoom to UP. Tapos palakad-lakad. At magi-stay sa aming Special Place, under the shade of the bamboo trees! Parang ansaya ng sama-sama naming mga DLSP. Enjoy tuloy buhay kolehiyo, lalo na kung wala lang kayong ginawa kundi magkwentuhan. Ansarap matulog.
May natagpuan nga pala akong song:
Open up your mind and let me step inside
Rest your weary head and let your heart decide
It's so easy when you know the rules
It's so easy all you have to do
Is fall in love
Play the game
Everybody play the game of love
When you're feelin' down and your resistance is low
Light another cigarette and let yourself go
This is your life
Don't play hard to get
Its a free world
All you have to do is fall in love
Play the game everyone play the game of love
My game of love has just begun
Love runs from my head down to my toes
My love is pumping through my veins (play the game)
Driving me insane
Come come come come play the game play the game play
The game play the game
Play the game everybody play the game of love.
- Play The Game, Queen [Greatest Hits]
Oh yeah! Play the game.
~
Hmph 5 days bago nag online, tapos parang wala rin. >:P
Let me in!
May natagpuan nga pala akong song:
Open up your mind and let me step inside
Rest your weary head and let your heart decide
It's so easy when you know the rules
It's so easy all you have to do
Is fall in love
Play the game
Everybody play the game of love
When you're feelin' down and your resistance is low
Light another cigarette and let yourself go
This is your life
Don't play hard to get
Its a free world
All you have to do is fall in love
Play the game everyone play the game of love
My game of love has just begun
Love runs from my head down to my toes
My love is pumping through my veins (play the game)
Driving me insane
Come come come come play the game play the game play
The game play the game
Play the game everybody play the game of love.
- Play The Game, Queen [Greatest Hits]
Oh yeah! Play the game.
~
Hmph 5 days bago nag online, tapos parang wala rin. >:P
Let me in!
Break
Oh yes, gumising ako ng 3am para magluto ng pancit canton, uminom ng coke, at makinig ng Queen. And then, june 5 was a day. (I count the next day from 6am onwards).
Here a little sump'n sump'n:
She keeps Moet et Chandon
In her pretty cabinet
'Let them eat cake' she says
Just like Marie Antoinette
A built-in remedy
For Khrushchev and Kennedy
At anytime an invitation
You can't decline
Caviar and cigarettes
Well versed in etiquette
Extraordinarily nice
She's a Killer Queen
Gunpowder, guillotine
Dynamite with a laser beam
Guaranteed to blow your mind
Anytime
Recommended at the price
Insatiable an appetite
Wanna try?
To avoid complications
She never kept the same address
In conversation
She spoke just like a baroness
Met a man from China
Went down to Geisha Minah
Then again incidentally
If you're that way inclined
Perfume came naturally from Paris
forgot she could care less
Fastidious and precise
Drop of a hat she's as willing as
Playful as a pussy cat
Then momentarily out of action
Temporarily out of gas
To absolutely drive you wild, wild
She's all out to get you
Recommended at the price
Insatiable an appetite
Wanna try?
You wanna try
- Killer Queen, Queen [Greatest Hits]
Na nirecommend sa akin ni astrud weeeh.
Ganito kaya gawin ko lagi? Tulog ng maaga kasi nakakainis, tas gigising ng 3AM. Whew. Kasi! Nawawala yung isa diyan, nawawala point ng pagiging online ko. At shitty rin net ko, di ako makapasok kanina sa ym. Baka mamaya may nangyari na naman dun. >.<
Kakatamad. Buti na lang maganda speakers ko. When the time comes, I'll have a laptop on bed 3.2 speakers maybe and some tea! And probably, original copies of me fave music.
Here a little sump'n sump'n:
She keeps Moet et Chandon
In her pretty cabinet
'Let them eat cake' she says
Just like Marie Antoinette
A built-in remedy
For Khrushchev and Kennedy
At anytime an invitation
You can't decline
Caviar and cigarettes
Well versed in etiquette
Extraordinarily nice
She's a Killer Queen
Gunpowder, guillotine
Dynamite with a laser beam
Guaranteed to blow your mind
Anytime
Recommended at the price
Insatiable an appetite
Wanna try?
To avoid complications
She never kept the same address
In conversation
She spoke just like a baroness
Met a man from China
Went down to Geisha Minah
Then again incidentally
If you're that way inclined
Perfume came naturally from Paris
forgot she could care less
Fastidious and precise
Drop of a hat she's as willing as
Playful as a pussy cat
Then momentarily out of action
Temporarily out of gas
To absolutely drive you wild, wild
She's all out to get you
Recommended at the price
Insatiable an appetite
Wanna try?
You wanna try
- Killer Queen, Queen [Greatest Hits]
Na nirecommend sa akin ni astrud weeeh.
Ganito kaya gawin ko lagi? Tulog ng maaga kasi nakakainis, tas gigising ng 3AM. Whew. Kasi! Nawawala yung isa diyan, nawawala point ng pagiging online ko. At shitty rin net ko, di ako makapasok kanina sa ym. Baka mamaya may nangyari na naman dun. >.<
Kakatamad. Buti na lang maganda speakers ko. When the time comes, I'll have a laptop on bed 3.2 speakers maybe and some tea! And probably, original copies of me fave music.
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