Naiinis ako. Wala kong gana kumain, wala akong gana for anything. Feeling ko, kaunting ano lang masusuka na ko. Yeah. At ito na naman ako, mabuti na yung gnaito walang naapektuhang mga tao. Hindi ko kailangang magsinungaling, wala namang magtatanong. Fuck! Wala pa ko 19 kung anu-anong kalokohan na nakikita ko, mas masaya naman siguro dapat ang mundo ngayon kesa nung 15 ako. Parang walang nagbabago. Antaas ng tingin ko sa mga tao, pero usually kanya-kanyang inconsistencies pa rin. Nobody would care enough to inform you. Pero kung ako naman, putangina ganyan ka naman, bahala ka na nga, hindi ka rin naman makikinig, long story short. Kasuko-suko talaga mga tao, wala na kong magawa kundi tanggapin na lang sila, tanggapin na hindi sila katiwala-tiwala pero mahalaga pa rin na magtiwala ka. Nagbabasag na naman ako ng katahimikan. Hmph. Parang walang kwenta.
Ayan tuloy nag kwento na naman ako sa ibang tao. Tsk. Sa lahat ng kalokohan sa mundo, may makikita ka pa rin na katuwa-tuwa. Nakakapagpagaan. Nakakasaya.Sana may kapupuntahan itong lahat.
Pero dahil medyo masaya na uli ako.. Wala. Pero hindi uli. >.<
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
Friday, May 25, 2007
And After All
-Fuck, ano yun?
The air is visible around you
Rising up and off your lips
In slow currents
And I watch
As your face is framed in it’s
Slow currents
Drifting curls, a trailing path
A long drag becomes
A tress of blue and ash
If it is born in flames
Then we should let it burn
Burn as brightly as we can
If it’s got to end
Then let it end in flames
Let it burn all the way down
The air is visceral around us
Turning in its simple steps
On slow currents
And I watch
As it pirouettes and spins
In slow motion
A long drag comes
A slow dance
In a halo of ember
If it is born in flames
Then we should let it burn
Burn as brightly as we can
If it’s got to end
Then let it end in flames
Let it burn all the way down
All the way down
And if this is ever meant to end
Then I hope it ends where it began
So hot with love we burned our hands
If this is ever meant to end
Then I hope it ends where it began
So hot with love it burns our hands
If it is born in flames
Then we should let it burn
Burn as brightly as we can
If it's got to end
Then let it end in flames
Let it burn (Let it burn)
- Currents, Dashboard Confessional [Dusk and Summer]
Hindi ko alam kung bakit ganun pero, it's not about me. Haha. It's You. Get ready! Nakakatuwa hype ng mga tao ngayun. Pero ansaya ah, most memorable itong summer na to, my 18th. Ito na yun eh. Hindi dahil kung saan-saan ako napunta ngayun, actually kung ano ang mga napagdaanan ko, mga naisip at iniisip, mga natagpuan, mga nawala, at siyempre ang naramdaman. Too damn beautiful.
Hintay lang! Hihinto na ko sa kakahintay.
The air is visible around you
Rising up and off your lips
In slow currents
And I watch
As your face is framed in it’s
Slow currents
Drifting curls, a trailing path
A long drag becomes
A tress of blue and ash
If it is born in flames
Then we should let it burn
Burn as brightly as we can
If it’s got to end
Then let it end in flames
Let it burn all the way down
The air is visceral around us
Turning in its simple steps
On slow currents
And I watch
As it pirouettes and spins
In slow motion
A long drag comes
A slow dance
In a halo of ember
If it is born in flames
Then we should let it burn
Burn as brightly as we can
If it’s got to end
Then let it end in flames
Let it burn all the way down
All the way down
And if this is ever meant to end
Then I hope it ends where it began
So hot with love we burned our hands
If this is ever meant to end
Then I hope it ends where it began
So hot with love it burns our hands
If it is born in flames
Then we should let it burn
Burn as brightly as we can
If it's got to end
Then let it end in flames
Let it burn (Let it burn)
- Currents, Dashboard Confessional [Dusk and Summer]
Hindi ko alam kung bakit ganun pero, it's not about me. Haha. It's You. Get ready! Nakakatuwa hype ng mga tao ngayun. Pero ansaya ah, most memorable itong summer na to, my 18th. Ito na yun eh. Hindi dahil kung saan-saan ako napunta ngayun, actually kung ano ang mga napagdaanan ko, mga naisip at iniisip, mga natagpuan, mga nawala, at siyempre ang naramdaman. Too damn beautiful.
Hintay lang! Hihinto na ko sa kakahintay.
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
Don't Pass Me By
Magpopost sana ako lyrics pero, n00b lyrics ng Long, Long, Long. Kaya if you can listen to it now, do so. Well.
Achievements ko? Nakagawa uli ako ng maayos na pics, this time, for NWO. Pero madali lang yun eh. At napansin ko, dami ko palang gustong gawin. Drummer. Photographer. Photo Editor. Machinima Maker. Writer. Parang wala pa kong nasisimulan. Kaya magdodownload ako ng Flash para sa Machinima, Tutorial para sa ibang features ng Adobe Photoshop. Gusto ko rin ng drums na mahal (10k lang naman), tapos camera (birthday gift na para saken, pero matagal pa dadating, asa pa ko). Kaya ko to!
Days ago nagi-isip na ko magsulat ng isang movie eh. Isang dystopian na mundo, and such. Pero wala pa kong alam na reason na hindi pa used na ikasisira ng mundo, yun lang. Kailangan ko naman ngayon magsulat ng script para sa Machinima.Kaya to! Unahin ko na lang yung tutorial para sa Adobe Photoshop. Kaya lang barag net ko. WTF.
Where to? I'm currently wrecking my ears by listening to The Beatles (White Album) using my in-ear style earphones. Can't help it. Sounds better this way. And it's good, by the way.
I was alarmed when I saw that my abdomen has quite lost its features. Must be all that soda I've been taking, and too much sitting. I did the usual, 25 reps, 3 sets, bent knee leg raise. Now, it hurts a lot I tell you, more will come tomorrow. They say it means you've used it enough and it will develop. This practically the best achievement I have from my friends, most toned body. Oh yeah. I've planned that I would work out everyday during summer break, so far, I did two out of 60 days. Almost once a month.
Always scheming. Fudge. The wheels are in motion once again. We can ride it.
Achievements ko? Nakagawa uli ako ng maayos na pics, this time, for NWO. Pero madali lang yun eh. At napansin ko, dami ko palang gustong gawin. Drummer. Photographer. Photo Editor. Machinima Maker. Writer. Parang wala pa kong nasisimulan. Kaya magdodownload ako ng Flash para sa Machinima, Tutorial para sa ibang features ng Adobe Photoshop. Gusto ko rin ng drums na mahal (10k lang naman), tapos camera (birthday gift na para saken, pero matagal pa dadating, asa pa ko). Kaya ko to!
Days ago nagi-isip na ko magsulat ng isang movie eh. Isang dystopian na mundo, and such. Pero wala pa kong alam na reason na hindi pa used na ikasisira ng mundo, yun lang. Kailangan ko naman ngayon magsulat ng script para sa Machinima.Kaya to! Unahin ko na lang yung tutorial para sa Adobe Photoshop. Kaya lang barag net ko. WTF.
Where to? I'm currently wrecking my ears by listening to The Beatles (White Album) using my in-ear style earphones. Can't help it. Sounds better this way. And it's good, by the way.
I was alarmed when I saw that my abdomen has quite lost its features. Must be all that soda I've been taking, and too much sitting. I did the usual, 25 reps, 3 sets, bent knee leg raise. Now, it hurts a lot I tell you, more will come tomorrow. They say it means you've used it enough and it will develop. This practically the best achievement I have from my friends, most toned body. Oh yeah. I've planned that I would work out everyday during summer break, so far, I did two out of 60 days. Almost once a month.
Always scheming. Fudge. The wheels are in motion once again. We can ride it.
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
Don't Wanna Hear It
Oh yes, di sana ako mag-po-post ng lyrics ng kanta ever, pero some 0things are just too beautiful. (OA). Nakita ko lang na hit sa isang radio station sa Yahoo, eh meron ako I checked it out again and looked up its lyrics. Ayun, ansaya.
There's talk on the street; it sounds so familiar
Great expectations, everybody's watching you
People you meet, they all seem to know you
Even your old friends treat you like you're something new
Johnny come lately, the new kid in town
Everybody loves you, so don't let them down
You look in her eyes; the music begins to play
Hopeless romantics, here we go again
But after awhile, you're lookin' the other way
It's those restless hearts that never mend
Johnny come lately, the new kid in town
Will she still love you when you're not around?
There's so many things you should have told her,
but night after night you're willing to hold her,
Just hold her, tears on your shoulder
There's talk on the street, it's there to
Remind you, that it doesn't really matter
which side you're on.
You're walking away and they're talking behind you
They will never forget you 'til somebody new comes along
Where you been lately? There's a new kid in town
Everybody loves him, don't they?
Now he's holding her, and you're still around
Oh, my, my
There's a new kid in town
Ooh, hoo
just another new kid in town
Ooh, hoo
Everybody's talking 'bout the new kid in town,
Everybody's walking' like the new kid in town
I don't want to hear it
There's a new kid in town
I don't want to hear it
There's a new kid in town
-New Kid In Town, Eagles
There's talk on the street; it sounds so familiar
Great expectations, everybody's watching you
People you meet, they all seem to know you
Even your old friends treat you like you're something new
Johnny come lately, the new kid in town
Everybody loves you, so don't let them down
You look in her eyes; the music begins to play
Hopeless romantics, here we go again
But after awhile, you're lookin' the other way
It's those restless hearts that never mend
Johnny come lately, the new kid in town
Will she still love you when you're not around?
There's so many things you should have told her,
but night after night you're willing to hold her,
Just hold her, tears on your shoulder
There's talk on the street, it's there to
Remind you, that it doesn't really matter
which side you're on.
You're walking away and they're talking behind you
They will never forget you 'til somebody new comes along
Where you been lately? There's a new kid in town
Everybody loves him, don't they?
Now he's holding her, and you're still around
Oh, my, my
There's a new kid in town
Ooh, hoo
just another new kid in town
Ooh, hoo
Everybody's talking 'bout the new kid in town,
Everybody's walking' like the new kid in town
There's a new kid in town
There's a new kid in town I don't want to hear it
There's a new kid in town
I don't want to hear it
There's a new kid in town
-New Kid In Town, Eagles
Tuesday, May 8, 2007
Burn
Habang nasa bundok at naglalakad or nag-s-struggle pa-akyat, ang isang counselor namin ay nagpapatugtog ng beatles, john lennon, paul mccartney, at elton john (ang mga na-aalala ko lang). Familiar ako sa iba pero narinig ko itong John Lennon song na parang hindi ko pa naririnig. At, mukhang masaya naman siya habang pinapakinggan ko sa Mt. Daguldol.
People say I'm crazy doing what I'm doing
Well they give me all kinds of warnings to save me from ruin
When I say that I'm o.k. well they look at me kind of strange
Surely you're not happy now you no longer play the game
People say I'm lazy dreaming my life away
Well they give me all kinds of advice designed to enlighten me
When I tell them that I'm doing fine watching shadows on the wall
Don't you miss the big time boy you're no longer on the ball
I'm just sitting here watching the wheels go round and round
I really love to watch them roll
No longer riding on the merry-go-round
I just had to let it go
Ah, people asking questions lost in confusion
Well I tell them theres no problem, only solutions
Well they shake their heads and they look at me as if I've lost my mind
I tell them there's no hurry
I'm just sitting here doing time
I'm just sitting here watching the wheels go round and round
I really love to watch them roll
No longer riding on the merry-go-round
I just had to let it go
- Watching the Wheels, John Lennon [Double Fantasy]
Nahulaan ko na lang title nung narinig ko ang chorus, at meron pala ako nun. Yeah.
Pero nasunog ako. Big time.
People say I'm crazy doing what I'm doing
Well they give me all kinds of warnings to save me from ruin
When I say that I'm o.k. well they look at me kind of strange
Surely you're not happy now you no longer play the game
People say I'm lazy dreaming my life away
Well they give me all kinds of advice designed to enlighten me
When I tell them that I'm doing fine watching shadows on the wall
Don't you miss the big time boy you're no longer on the ball
I'm just sitting here watching the wheels go round and round
I really love to watch them roll
No longer riding on the merry-go-round
I just had to let it go
Ah, people asking questions lost in confusion
Well I tell them theres no problem, only solutions
Well they shake their heads and they look at me as if I've lost my mind
I tell them there's no hurry
I'm just sitting here doing time
I'm just sitting here watching the wheels go round and round
I really love to watch them roll
No longer riding on the merry-go-round
I just had to let it go
- Watching the Wheels, John Lennon [Double Fantasy]
Nahulaan ko na lang title nung narinig ko ang chorus, at meron pala ako nun. Yeah.
Pero nasunog ako. Big time.
Friday, May 4, 2007
Running on Faith
Wala magulo. Natulog ako agad, 'agad' in this case, siguro 1 AM. At naka 7 hours na ko ng tulog, parang bitin pa rin. Gusto ko uling matulog buong araw.
Oh shit. Pero next level games na ko! Awoo! I'm switching tactics! Pag may conflict of interest talaga, kailangan mo mag-declare ng war. Lalo na kung na-preemptive strike ka! Hindi lang yun! Na-infiltrate pa ng sobra-sobra. Nagkaron ng false sense of security.
It's in the way that you use it! It comes and it goes!
Am I on to something? Am I really? Awoo!
Everybody feels betrayed once in a while. But that's just it, we just feel. Not important if it's real. But that's okay, some people are more open to new emotions and may welcome it anytime.
Puro inconsistencies.
Di dapat ako magpo-post ng kanta eh. Pero, here we go!
Lately I've been running on faith
What else can a poor boy do?
But my world will be right
When love comes over you
Lately I've been talking in my sleep
I can't imagine what I'd have to say
Except my world will be right
When love comes back your way
I've always been
One to take each and every day
Seems like by now
I'd find a love who cares just for me
Then we'd go running on faith
All of our dreams would come true
And our world will be right
When love comes over me and you
Then we'd go running on faith
All of our dreams would come true
And our world will be right
When love comes over me and you
When love comes over you
- Running on Faith, performed by Eric Clapton, composed by Jerry Lynn Williams
Shit. I've been talking to people, and I don't like how they say things.
Shit uli! Enjoy na enjoy talaga ako sa ginagawa ko! Sabi sa inyo masaya to eh.
Eto ang kasiyahan sa pagkakaron ng private blog eh, pareho lang kahit public, oh well.
Nakakatawa pa rin talaga ang ibang mga tao eh, hindi ko na nga aawayin, tatawanan ko na lang.
Well takbo pa rin!
Oh shit. Pero next level games na ko! Awoo! I'm switching tactics! Pag may conflict of interest talaga, kailangan mo mag-declare ng war. Lalo na kung na-preemptive strike ka! Hindi lang yun! Na-infiltrate pa ng sobra-sobra. Nagkaron ng false sense of security.
It's in the way that you use it! It comes and it goes!
Am I on to something? Am I really? Awoo!
Everybody feels betrayed once in a while. But that's just it, we just feel. Not important if it's real. But that's okay, some people are more open to new emotions and may welcome it anytime.
Puro inconsistencies.
Di dapat ako magpo-post ng kanta eh. Pero, here we go!
Lately I've been running on faith
What else can a poor boy do?
But my world will be right
When love comes over you
Lately I've been talking in my sleep
I can't imagine what I'd have to say
Except my world will be right
When love comes back your way
I've always been
One to take each and every day
Seems like by now
I'd find a love who cares just for me
Then we'd go running on faith
All of our dreams would come true
And our world will be right
When love comes over me and you
Then we'd go running on faith
All of our dreams would come true
And our world will be right
When love comes over me and you
When love comes over you
- Running on Faith, performed by Eric Clapton, composed by Jerry Lynn Williams
Shit. I've been talking to people, and I don't like how they say things.
Shit uli! Enjoy na enjoy talaga ako sa ginagawa ko! Sabi sa inyo masaya to eh.
Eto ang kasiyahan sa pagkakaron ng private blog eh, pareho lang kahit public, oh well.
Nakakatawa pa rin talaga ang ibang mga tao eh, hindi ko na nga aawayin, tatawanan ko na lang.
Well takbo pa rin!
Thursday, May 3, 2007
She Don't Lie
Talking to myself and feeling old
Sometimes Id like to quit
Nothing ever seems to fit
Hanging around, nothing to do but frown
Rainy days and Monday's always get me down
What Ive got they used to call the blues
Nothing is really wrong
Feeling like I don't belong
Walking around some kind of lonely clown
Rainy days and Monday's always get me down
Funny but it seems I always wind up here with you
It's nice to know somebody loves me
Funny but it seems that it's the only thing to do
To run and find the one who loves me
What I feel is come and gone before
No need to talk it out
We know what its all about
Hanging around, nothing to do but frown
Rainy days and Mondays always get me down
Funny but it seems that its the only thing to do
Run and find the one who loves me
- Rainy Days and Mondays, The Carpenters
Seemed right the night before. Pero ngayong pinapakinggan ko nitong umaga, nababaduyan ako sa sarili ko. Haha. Parang wimp song. Actually wimp album. Well anyway, I put on Cocaine, and Layla, and Blue Eyes Blue once again. Parang ampangit ng Layla ng Derek and The Dominoes.
Well, she don't lie, she don't lie, cocaine.
Sometimes Id like to quit
Nothing ever seems to fit
Hanging around, nothing to do but frown
Rainy days and Monday's always get me down
What Ive got they used to call the blues
Nothing is really wrong
Feeling like I don't belong
Walking around some kind of lonely clown
Rainy days and Monday's always get me down
Funny but it seems I always wind up here with you
It's nice to know somebody loves me
Funny but it seems that it's the only thing to do
To run and find the one who loves me
What I feel is come and gone before
No need to talk it out
We know what its all about
Hanging around, nothing to do but frown
Rainy days and Mondays always get me down
Funny but it seems that its the only thing to do
Run and find the one who loves me
- Rainy Days and Mondays, The Carpenters
Seemed right the night before. Pero ngayong pinapakinggan ko nitong umaga, nababaduyan ako sa sarili ko. Haha. Parang wimp song. Actually wimp album. Well anyway, I put on Cocaine, and Layla, and Blue Eyes Blue once again. Parang ampangit ng Layla ng Derek and The Dominoes.
Well, she don't lie, she don't lie, cocaine.
Wednesday, May 2, 2007
Drag Me Down
Shit. I've just consumed one-and-a-half liters of coke. My arms, especially my triceps, hurt. More or less, I have a literally heavy chest. My shoulders droop, my insides swirl. I feel like I want to puke. This has not been a great day. But I've finally found something I could keep my mind to, watching videos of concerts. Most especially, The Concert for George.
I've thought of posting I Want To Tell You, but I found this instead:
Been beat up and battered round
Been sent up, and I've been shot down
You're the best thing that I've ever found
Handle me with care
Reputations changeable
Situations tolerable
Baby, you're adorable
Handle me with care
I'm so tired of being lonely
I still have some love to give
Wont you show me that you really care
Everybody's got somebody to lean on
Put your body next to mine, and dream on
I've been fobbed off, and I've been fooled
I've been robbed and ridiculed
In day care centers and night schools
Handle me with care
Been stuck in airports, terrorized
Sent to meetings, hypnotized
Overexposed, commercialized
Handle me with care
I'm so tired of being lonely
I still have some love to give
Wont you show me that you really care
Everybody's got somebody to lean on
Put your body next to mine, and dream on
I've been uptight and made a mess
But I'll clean it up myself, I guess
Oh, the sweet smell of success
Handle me with care
- Handle With Care, Traveling Wilburys
Shit sakit pa rin ng likod ko.Meron na ngang song wars ngayun eh, haha. Ampathetic. Nakahuli tuloy ako ng isda. Aaargh! Why bother? This is where I put everything that was said to test. So bang your head somewhere else, this one's mine.
At dahil balak ko rin naman sana i-post ang I Want To Tell You, ilalagay ko na lang ang notable verses.
When I get near you,
The games begin to drag me down
It's all right
I'll make you maybe next time around
But if I seem to act unkind
It's only me, it's not my mind
That is confusing things.
Sometimes I wish I knew you well,
Then I could speak my mind and tell you
Maybe you'd understand
Oh yes, the games are really dragging me down. Things will really happen if we don't have a little faith. Or maybe we just don't deserve each other's faith. Well then there's this precious time that must not be wasted. Spare me! I valued them until you said that I wasted it. Anlalaki talaga ng problema ng mga tao no? Sayang, sayang oras? Ha! Huwag kasi mang-gago, lalo na kung hindi sarili mo. Sino ba nag-issue sayo ng permit? Para kanino ba ko magbabago? Sayo? As usual, nobody needs me, not even you.
I've thought of posting I Want To Tell You, but I found this instead:
Been beat up and battered round
Been sent up, and I've been shot down
You're the best thing that I've ever found
Handle me with care
Reputations changeable
Situations tolerable
Baby, you're adorable
Handle me with care
I'm so tired of being lonely
I still have some love to give
Wont you show me that you really care
Everybody's got somebody to lean on
Put your body next to mine, and dream on
I've been fobbed off, and I've been fooled
I've been robbed and ridiculed
In day care centers and night schools
Handle me with care
Been stuck in airports, terrorized
Sent to meetings, hypnotized
Overexposed, commercialized
Handle me with care
I'm so tired of being lonely
I still have some love to give
Wont you show me that you really care
Everybody's got somebody to lean on
Put your body next to mine, and dream on
I've been uptight and made a mess
But I'll clean it up myself, I guess
Oh, the sweet smell of success
Handle me with care
- Handle With Care, Traveling Wilburys
Shit sakit pa rin ng likod ko.Meron na ngang song wars ngayun eh, haha. Ampathetic. Nakahuli tuloy ako ng isda. Aaargh! Why bother? This is where I put everything that was said to test. So bang your head somewhere else, this one's mine.
At dahil balak ko rin naman sana i-post ang I Want To Tell You, ilalagay ko na lang ang notable verses.
When I get near you,
The games begin to drag me down
It's all right
I'll make you maybe next time around
But if I seem to act unkind
It's only me, it's not my mind
That is confusing things.
Sometimes I wish I knew you well,
Then I could speak my mind and tell you
Maybe you'd understand
Oh yes, the games are really dragging me down. Things will really happen if we don't have a little faith. Or maybe we just don't deserve each other's faith. Well then there's this precious time that must not be wasted. Spare me! I valued them until you said that I wasted it. Anlalaki talaga ng problema ng mga tao no? Sayang, sayang oras? Ha! Huwag kasi mang-gago, lalo na kung hindi sarili mo. Sino ba nag-issue sayo ng permit? Para kanino ba ko magbabago? Sayo? As usual, nobody needs me, not even you.
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